To: Jason Hawes and Grant Wilson
A Breast Cancer survivor says "Thank You".
I have a 20-year medical and holistic studies background, with a Bachelors of Science in Metaphysics and a Masters Degree in Holistic Ministries. I also wrote and taught a 500-hour massage therapy program. I share all of this for two reasons.
First, my occupational and educational background did not fully prepare me for the day I was told that I had Breast Cancer. That was August of 2007. And here I am.
Second, even though having a medical background did not prepare me in hearing the words, “breast cancer”, it did help me in ways that were integral to my survival.
In my medical background and also with teaching massage therapy, I learned a great deal in energy work, in particular, other people’s emotional exchange when practicing massage therapy. This included how to do what is called “grounding” before working with a client.
I also understood very well how anger, fear and other emotions could release various hormones in the bloodstream. Some refer to them as the “flight or fight” response hormones. We need this to react and respond.
Doctors I worked for, including my own personal Doctors, would share what types of chemicals can be released in the body that could breakdown the immune system and so forth if anger, fear and danger are being experienced for a prolonged period of time.
This is what I kept in mind. I was so fearful of my diagnosis and did not know what was going to happen to me. I needed to learn to control my fear. I thought this was going to be a long ride in treatment, which it was.
After my first round of Chemo and some very strong medication for the nausea (steroids) I was rushed to the emergency room on a Friday night. I had an allergic reaction to this steroid that was very bad. My body was exhausted and months prior to even being diagnosed I had stopped sleeping. I was beyond fatigued and exhausted.
They gave me this same medicine again on Sunday. I believed at this moment it was not the cancer that was going to kill me, but the medication. I had every Doctor and nurse surrounding me. My husband was in the room as he witnessed this whole horrific ordeal. I knew I was leaving this earth. I had and still have related experiences to this day from this almost near death experience.
A few days after I went home, my hair began to fall out and I was very, very weak, sick and vulnerable. I was also frightened and scared.
My husband fed me, took care of me and turned on my TV to programs to help me keep my mind off of the obvious. For the first time, I began watching some show about ghost hunters. I was very intrigued because it relates to many of my own personal experiences and also to my educational and occupational studies.
I was fascinated the most with respect to the parallel of how not to react to an entity with regards to fear and anger as I understood how not to have prolonged anger and fear for the medical reasons I stated earlier.
Grant Wilson and Jason Hawes, sharing how not to show any fear or these types of emotions to any entity was a Godsend of a message to me.
It was not but a few days after watching that episode that I had my first encounter with a shadow figure. It was with a tall man leaning over my bed. He appeared to me very tall and thin. Later I learned from someone in the paranormal field, it was someone equivalent to the undertaker. This person also had paranormal experiences with their near death.
I am convinced that I watched the Ghost hunters show with Grant and Jason this one particular evening the shadow man came to my bed. I looked at him and said I am not dealing with this now because I am going to go back to sleep and rolled over. I was calm as could be and did not show any fear or anger, just as I had seen earlier in the show.
Some could say this was meds, being tired, chemo, etc., but I know for sure what happened to me. It is two years later, no chemo, lots of rest and I still have personal paranormal experiences. I have had people tell me that I am an “energy intuitive”, likely due to the near death trauma experience in the hospital.
This letter was to say thank you so much Grant and Jason. It was almost exactly a year after treatment that I had a dream that you visited me in Chicago. I had won some contest and you both were sitting on my couch and I ran to you both thanking you. It was one of those dreams that was very real and detailed.
Bright Blessings and Thank You.
